About the Album
The idea for this album came to me at 3am one night while I was sitting in my room looking at the bare white walls and I imagined what they would look like dripping blood. Kind of like The Simpsons Treehouse of Horrors “Bad Dream House” where they move into an old house that’s evil. Eventually the house decided it would rather destroy itself than live with the Simpsons. I digress. Building on that idea, I wrote a song called Four Walls, that is fantastic but I couldn’t finish and I hope one day I can come back to it after two years of having already worked on it. But it served as the basis for the whole album. Then I came up with the idea of this “man” (I’ll come back to the quotes) who is so far removed from society that he actually believes he is not human. He comes to the realization that his existence is to purge the earth of humans, the ones who outcast him because he isn’t like them. That’s where The Room comes in, it’s his world. The line in This is My Story “mingle in your world and destroy you in mine” is where idea is best conveyed. Basically, The Room is where he takes people to kill them. Brutally. I actually have a handful of other songs written for this album that I either couldn’t sing for or decided were too grotesque or detracted from the idea that I eventually decided upon.
Originally each song was supposed to be about a murder that he committed and the connections that he felt with each of them. I wrote a song called The Couple where he performs various sexual acts with a husband and wife while dismembering them as an example. Coming back to “man”, I like to make my characters sexually ambiguous usually, typically have many characteristics of being a man, but no way for you to actually know, this song was supposed to make you question whether it was a woman or man doing all this or some strange combination of the two.
Then I wrote a song called Emily and found myself very focussed on this fictional girl. Mostly it was the name, it seemed to work so well in so many ways. So I scrapped the idea of writing about different people. This was so much more. Emily is this girl that he feels is his only connection to the real world with. He feels right with her. But then she finds out about the killing and ends up in his world. In the room. So that’s why there are three songs called Emily something. One’s about how much he loves her and how he doesn’t deserve it but he feels alive with her, one is a daunting silence of dark reflection on what to do, and the last one is him finally killing her. She has really beautiful eyes that he rips out. There are actually about five or six other songs about Emily but I either didn’t like them or I forgot how to play them and the lyrics were stupid.
The other two songs with lyrics on the album are about his alienation and how he feels about the rest of the world.
I find it ironic that all the songs that propelled the original idea didn’t make it and with an album called The Room, not a single song is about the room. In fact the one that was, I can’t finish. The song itself is so phenomenal that I wish I could finish it. It’s huge and beautiful and has seven guitar tracks, two bass tracks, four vocal tracks, piano, and drums and there’s nothing I can do with the ending.
I’ll end this with a section of lyrics from Four Walls:
And if walls could speak they’d say
What I’ve done is not okay
Ruin life with these hands of mine
In this room, in this pantomime.